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im ready for the waiting to be done, but i can tell we've just begun
i'm on the road to finding me, but you're exactly where i need to be, you make me free
remembering that summer when
nothing else mattered and
you're everything i ever needed
so tell me, why does it feel like this?
the separation's so disastrous
like the world's caving in on us
because, you're the only one

i don't want it to feel so wrong
cuz i know you're where i belong
like the melody to this song,
i need you to stay in my arms
and the words to your favorite song,
youre always on my mind

i need you now, and youre all i ever wanted
you take me back home when ive wandered
make me smile all the time and
you sing and are beautiful like a song bird

New Blog

So it's been a while since the last blog that I fully wrote and published. I just got back to my room with a friend from last year, who transferred to a different school and is visiting me again at my school. I learned a lot about people today, specifically tonight. I had a really good time, beginning the night with going to a jazz club with my old friend, where we met up with a friend that I made earlier this school year. We spent several hours at the jazz club, Smalls, before leaving to go to one of my favorite restaurants ever, Wo Hop. Just from witnessing how the night unraveled and the conversations that occurred between myself and my friends showed me that the way things might have been or that I thought still were very might not be the case anymore. As my girlfriend wisely told me yesterday, things aren't important because others perceive them to be great, and you shouldn't live your life doing things and with people that society or other people judge or deem fit or acceptable. Go do the right thing, even if it is slightly uncomfortable, listen to others, but also still stand for yourself, and all things will work out and come to the best conclusion.

I love you

Where We Stand

This is a writing that I've been meaning to post for about a month or so. I wrote it when I was in the middle of exams and just didn't get around to publishing it here on this blog. Anyways, I just wanted to contemplate on how things are at the moment, so I have slightly edited and updated this post since I originally wrote it.

I'm back at school now, and I'm all done with last semester's final exams. I spent an almost month-long vacation at home in Raleigh. And by home, I mean with some of my family and my girlfriend. I titled this post "Where We Stand" because it caused me to reflect on where I set my priorities. God and family are my top priorities. In order to carry out what God asks me to do and to do what is best for my family (which includes my friends and girlfriend), I need to follow what God asks of me, stay healthy and fit. First of all, God has already told me to get healthy so that I can carry out his future plans for me, and that going to school in NYC is also part of my getting myself prepared and ready for His future plans for me.

What does this have to do with finals and my family? Well if being with and taking care of my family is part of God's plan for me, why is another part of that plan to be physically separated from them while I am at school? I've learned that it is important for me to be physically secluded from them, and in a way everyone else too, for me to fully obtain the preparation needed for me to achieve God's plans for me. Coming to school in New York City allows me to be able to have the benefits of a retreat where I can seclude myself from the outside world and focus while still allowing me to keep in touch with what God uses to keep me on track, which is my family. NYC would never have been my idea of where I can carry out a secluded retreat, but after thinking about it, I realized how it is the perfect place. It is so crowded that I really can become lost and secluded while maintaining the connections I need with my family.

This is where we stand.