My Love

I really just nee to emphasize how important my family is to me. And not just my blood family, but I consider some of my closest friends to be my true family as well. My girlfriend and best friend is seriously the most important person in my life. She is always there for and with me, always supports me no matter what, and seriously we know each other better than any other people do. She is the most important to me.

My sister and my cousins are the best. They always have my back, I love them so much. I've also been blessed with the greatest uncles, aunts, grandparents, and parents. It's true.

Last but definitely not least, my best and closest friends are awesome. Just calling them my best friends does not even adequately describe how much of an important part the play in my life. They are all my brothers, nothing less. I love them.


I love you my family.

Personality

There is no shame in stealth when it is needed. There is no shame in keeping specific knowledge to your self when it is right. Surprise is necessary sometimes. However, sneaking around behind the backs of others in order to thwart what is good is plain cowardice. If you have a problem, address it forwardly. Initiate direct confrontation, then you can use strategy; but do not spoil God's riches with trickery and proxy combat. Do not claim to love a person and stick them in a compromising situation, for that is a lie.

I say, if you have something to prove, say it now; but do not claim to be righteous when you chose to lay amongst your own filth. Rise up out of the darkness and into the light. You may speak in metaphors but do not deafen the blind man, for he will observe in more ways than you could ever hope to imagine or achieve yourself when you hold yourself to the work of Satan.

thinking

So, why is life so complicatedly simple? Did you ever notice how life is like a games, except a lot more real. Take one of the most simple modern computer games: minesweeper (speaking of which, on an unrelated note, go to youtube and watch minesweeper the movie, its great, they also have a lot of movie trailers based off classic video games as well made by the same people who made the "minesweeper the movie" video). When you click on one of the blocks, it provides clues, cleared spots, or detonates a mine. It's very simple, but the more you do in the game, the more complicated it gets, while still following a patter. How come life follows the same basic principles. It seems simple, the more you do, the more complicated it gets. Endless opportunities and information is fed to us, opportunities are taken or lost, and eventually everything finishes with a bang or a quiet "congratulations, you won!" memo, only begging you to return for more. I don't know. I have so much more to write, so I will when it comes to me.


I<3youSHJ

My Traveling Carolina

Booking down to Raleigh
Got three dollars for money
Rolling through Philly
Hoping home's sunny
Cuz I see you now

Jumping a train
Flying in planes
Walking in the rain
Anything to get to where I'm going

Cliche Dylan, birds and pills singing
But it's my feeling now too
The road to sweet Caroline is the only healing
You're my only feeling

Going forever, anywhere, for you
The tall, strong pine
The land that's mine
The bond that our's for the rest of time

Traveling, more people than I know
To help me and you
Running, I know that I'm not alone
I'm coming home to you

Book of the Thirteenth Disciples: First Episode, First Installment

Path to enlightenment, wisdom, opened hearts. Need to open and stay open for the service of others. Leave all behind when called, except for knowledge, experiences, and love. Do not follow blindly, do not deafen yourself, do not open your eyes and ears only to fill yourself with numbness. Must have feeling, must think and be aware. God gave us reason for a reason, but don't use it to stray. God also gave us a candle to light the way. Follow the light, Jesus Christ, be submissive and listen and stay on correct path while continue to think.

Politics

From my understanding based on what I have gathered from the media (credible news papers, radio stations, and other news outlets), talking to people from all over the country (USA) and abroad, and just my own observations, the US and some of the rest of the Western World in particular, although not specifically, seem to think it is important to separate religious beliefs and ideology from political practice. This doesn't make any sense to me. What does make sense is allowing for theological and religious freedom in a country, and even more, having a government that encouraged the pursuit of truth and God. What do we need to embark upon this pursuit? Just listen. That's it. God already did all the work, all we have to do is listen to him. If people go into politics, and state that they need to separate their political views from their religious views while they "work" as politicians, how well founded are their religious views? For me, God is the most important part of my life. If I became a councilmen, a governor, an ambassador, president, congressman, senator, or held any other position in government, no matter how small or big, I could not pull the importance of God away from myself while "at the job." Honestly, my religious beliefs and loyalty to God would influence all my decisions, at and away from work. This, I know for a fact, shows that I have consistent and strong beliefs, and that I would be a good politician, because if I can continue to hold onto my beliefs and not waver in an environment that tends to try to push those beliefs out, than imagine how strongly I would also hold onto and stay consistent in all of my other beliefs and morals. This is because everything is religious for me. By this I mean every issue that could ever come about somehow stems back to my religious beliefs, and therefore, it is impossible to ignore or replace them, because without them, I would be nothing. This does not mean I would discriminate against people who disagree with my views. In fact, I would say many people disagree with my views. However, my views inspire me and guide me to want to learn as much about the background, beliefs, and traditions of others, and to be tolerant of them. On another but somewhat related issue, I am socialist. It is hard for me to connect myself to one of the already predetermined categories of socialism, since there is such a wide range of it. Many people look down upon this and dislike it, for different reasons, either out of misunderstanding, fear, disagreement, or some combination of these feelings, or possibly other feelings as well. First of all, these are very understandable feelings. Many people can become scared or fearful of socialism, especially in the US, because allowing for a system which is more socialized than the presently existing one would cause many small and huge changes, some predictable and others that are unpredictable. Between anti-Communist propaganda taught during the Cold War, current propaganda spread by organizations such as Fox, and just pure ignorance are some other of the sources of fear of socialism. First of all, Communism and socialism are not the same. They have similarities, but are not the same. This is like saying the actual sun at the center of our solar system and the various light bulbs available at a hardware store are the same. The sun represents Communism, and the light bulbs represent socialism. There are different kinds of socialism, just like there are different kinds of light bulbs, but the qualities of the sun is an extreme of those held by any and all of the light bulbs. In a similar but not completely same way, the qualities of Communism are an extreme position based upon some ideas in socialism. One of the fears coming of the sources of anti-socialism movements also states that it is anti-Christian, immortal, or goes against the teachings of other religions. Mainly modern American Conservatives hold these views. Firstly, as someone who was raised a Catholic Christian, and as a person who has studied not just the history of Christianity but also the teachings, structures, and histories of other religions, and as a person who does have God (the God of the Jewish, Christian, and Muslim tradition) as the most important part of his life, I am socialist BECAUSE of my religious beliefs. If you look at the history of socialism, it derived from the early Christian Church, where Christians belonged in tight-knit communities and trusted each other and shared with each other in order to work towards the common good and success of the community. It is important to succeed and prosper for your work, and you can prosper and succeed more when you do so as a community, and work as a community, and when members of said community do so willingly. Also, it is important for people to obtain as much education as possible, have some level of private property and privacy, and to have some extra comforts in addition to what they need to live dignified lives. It is just as bad in my opinion to have an unjust lack of necessity or comfort as it is to have an equally unjust over-supply of personal collections, although it is bad in different ways. Yes, things are much different not than it was 2000 years ago, and yes, a lot of good things have come about because of non-socialist systems, but it is important to work towards working for the betterment of the community and the future of the community that it is to work solely for the self.

Just a Few Thoughts

You ever wonder why people are so busy? I wonder why I make myself really busy. I tell myself that it'll pay off if I run certain errands mindlessly. How exactly do we benefit by blinding and dulling our senses every time we do something worth while. Imagine what we would learn and experience and gather just by paying attention when we do our chores. Homework, jobs, running to the grocery store. I was going to the movie theater this past Saturday, and instead of just walking forward, I stopped and looked up. It was awesome. The view I got just by observing my surroundings. I live in NYC. I just moved here a little more than a year ago from the South. I did use to live in upstate NY (which yes, I do realize is completely different from the NYC area and Long Island), and I have spent a lot of time in the City before, so it's not like I'm a complete tourist. I am familiar with the area. However, when I walked through the Village on Saturday and I looked up to the sky, I realized how much detail some of the most unsuspecting buildings have. This relates to the rest of life. It seems like the more familiar you get with a situation or position in life, the less likely you are to notice your surroundings because you cocoon yourself into routine. This can be dangerous. Why do we do this? Security, comfort, maybe because we have a desire to pursue a dream or goal and we think the only way to do it is to follow some kind of model of how life is supposed to be. The American Dream? Who said the way to our goal is the same way? Now I'll tell you one thing, the only way to happiness is through Jesus. Before people jump up, I just need everyone to understand something. The only way to ever be happy and to have love and achieve your most true goals is to pursue God and listen to him. He talks to all of us, but unfortunately most of us won't ever listen to him. Another thing is that we are all worthy of God. He made us to be worthy of him, he loves us and wants us. The only way to God is through Jesus. We need to go through him to reach God and achieve happiness, which is what we are all looking for in the end, right? So really, we are all working towards the same thing, but from different starting points and directions, so each of us walk an individual path, but we are all meant to walk together and support each other an work together. We need to love each other and help enlighten each other, so that we can help guide and lead each other to God's voice, so that we may be able to unite with everything.

Trust, don't hope.

God bless.

--John